As a young person my life was mapped out for me by the
choices other people had made for me. My parents bless their hearts in all good
intentions decided that I was to spend my life in the business world doing what
ever it was that was there for me. Truthfully there was nothing in the business
world for me but sorrow. Every job I held in that world was uninteresting and
it was not long before I quit or left the position for one reason or another.
No reasons were ever significant until now.
I grew up, I went to school (several times), I got married,
had children, all that expected stuff but I was unhappy. I bought a business,
operated it and closed it after being kicked repeatedly by the industry. I had
had my fair share of disappointments by this time. But it was during that time
that I realized that I’ve done everything that everyone else had expected of me
and not what made me happy. So what made me happy? It was not the main stream;
in fact the main stream is an absolute foreign language to me.
What makes me happy and is my life’s path is to be creative.
I am a musician, I craft (sew and knit), I cook, I write and I want to learn
how to draw. I have found that this path is one that continues forward for me
and it is enjoyable and I am learning how to make money doing the things I love to do. But I wish to tell you that as a young person I was duly
informed that this was no life to be had that being creative was not a trait
that was acceptable and that I must conform to the expectations of everyone
else around me. I was pinned into something that had no direction for me. So I
flopped along and fully wasted time, as there was nothing else I could do.
I spent many hours studying Spirituality and taking
salvation in a secret place where I could journey on my life’s path. It took me
many years to over come the fear of disappointing other people. I needed to
remember that my life is about me and not about them and their expectations of
me. I know that had I been allowed to develop my creative side at a younger age
life overall would have been a much happier experience in general. Although for
the most part I am relatively bouncy and happy go lucky.
I have accepted this portion of my life as it stands and
from it I take every moment as a learning moment. What have I learned? I have
learned who I am and what I am meant to be. I now have a clear view of the path
I am to follow and for the most part have been able to map out the directions
the forks in the road will take me. I look forward to the rest of my life and
the new journey and I am grateful for the lessons of the past.
It is never too late to look at the direction of your life
and to assess or reassess your journey. Look deep within yourself, within your
heart, and meditate. You may find that where you are is exactly where you
should be or you may find you need to make some changes, but either way you
know yourself the best and know what path is right for you.
Blessed Be
